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in the middle of crowded people, my head freezing at sudden. ah! i just like swing it my head left to right and right to left. when i look my desk ah! many assignments and many conditions that i have to finish before due times. oh! i always moaning when i get the hard ways, thats my bad habit.

sigh! exhale-inhale repeatedly. yah! like i am asthma-person. yes i am.

please take me get away from here even for a while. yes i need it to. take to me paradise, ocean, forest, or empty-house. we both having a great party inside for one night stand. ck! i need you, love. here besides me. i miss your skin, smelled, and big hugs. please take me away from here and i will take you to my paradise. hahaha (:

BFF.

my best friends/support-friends in me

Wa ode rabia aladawiyah and Rizky Amalia Nainggolan.

You've got a friend in me
You've got a friend in me
When the road looks rough ahead
And you're miles and miles
From your nice warm bed
You just remember what your old pal said
Yeah, you've got a friend in me

You've got a friend in me
You've got a friend in me
If you've got troubles,I've got 'em too
There isn't anything I wouldn't do for you
We stick together and can see it through
Cause you've got a friend in me
You've got a friend in me

Some other folks might be
A little bit smarter than I am
Bigger and stronger too
Maybe
But none of them will ever love you
The way I do, it's me and you
Boy, and as the years go by
Our friendship will never die
You're gonna see it's our destiny
You've got a friend in me

Hiding.

My cat, Annabellle. She was hiding under my draw-desk. She's cute, isn't it huh ? yes she is. When i go there.. go there and go there, she's always following me. haha! and the most important you should know is she's hypocrite cat that i ever seen! doh! When she's with the other cats, like pedro, messi, dexter, snowbelle; she didn't want i touched. But, when i brought her into my room, oh my god! she's really spoiled. Ckckck

Proposal of thesis.

my heart beating fasts ! yes i do! i was collected my proposal of thesis to my lecturer. I just use my guts to do that. yea! i don't know actually. hu! please. i am so scared, because my lecturer said not always the proposal could be approved. ah!

Now, i am here in his class, my lecturer's (Strategy of Marketing)! he told everything about "Last Session" and Pra-Session. yea! he was emphasizing about that. God please! i don't want to be one of the them who their proposals not accepted! fine. hu!

my heart still beat up. dag dig dug.

my mind still keep thinking about mine. swiiing

my hand still shaking. brrrrrr

Please, Ya Allah help me, save me !

C* sucks!

while i make the presentation of Strategy of Marketing, Strategy Customer Management! the c*in*s* people across next to me, really amusing me. Their laugh really out loud, just makes me argh! Hey if you want to annoying us with your bad-annoy-habits, please don't sit here, just out from here! F* you!

what about my presentation !? i couldn't get out from here, because this building just makes me comfort! but they really sucks very much !

i hate C* people sometimes, always showed up! sorry guys if i racism ! yes i am!

while make the presentation.

1. Are you single - no!
2. Are you happy – plenty.
3. Are you bored – yes! i doing my presentation yet.
4. Are you naked – no!
5. Are you a blonde – i hope so(:
6. Are you moody – yes i am!
7. Are you a lover/hater – lovable.
8. Are you hot/cold – excuse me?

Ten Facts

1. Name – hazananggrayni
2. Nicknames – nhena
3. Any birth marks – my arm
4. Hair color – black!
5. Natural hair color – black
6. Eye color – dark brown
7. Height – 165 cm
8. Mood – easy to laugh
9. Favorite color – purple brown
10. One Place to Visit – london & greek

Nine things about your love life:
1. Do you believe in love at first sight – "moments of the truth" in first encounter stage :)
2. Do you believe in soul mates – yes!
3. Have you ever been hurt emotionally – everyone has.
4. Have you ever broke someone’s heart? – ya.
5. Ever had your heart broken? – yay
6. Have you ever liked someone but never told them? – --#
7. Are you afraid of commitment? – no! as long as they could keep that.
8. Who was the last person you hugged? – popo!
9. Who was the last person you said I love you to? – popo!

Nine this or that
1. Love or lust – love
2. Cats or dogs – both!
3. A few best friends or many regular friends – a few best friends
4. Television or internet – television
5. Chinese Or Indian – Chinese yucks.
6. Wild night out or romantic night in – oh depends.
7. Money or Happiness – happiness.
8. Night or Day – night!
9. MSN or Phone – phone.

Eight have you ever
1. Been caught sneaking out – no
2. Been skinny dipping - no!
3. Bungee jumped – no! but i want to!
4. Lied to someone you liked – he-eh!
5. Finished an entire jaw breaker – HAH!!?
6. Wanted an ex bf/gf back – no!
7. Cried because you lost a pet – yes! i was.
8. Wanted to disappear – yes!

Ten preferences in a partner
1. Smile or eyes – both! he's sparkling into my eyes
2. Light or dark hair – dark!
3. Hugs or kisses – both yes!
4. Shorter or taller – taller of course
5. Intelligence or attraction – both
6. Romantic or spontaneous – both must be balanced!
7. Funny or serious – funny
8. Older or Younger – older!!
9. Outgoing or quiet – stay cool but outgoing.
10. Sweet or Bad Ass – BOTH! :)

Eight have you’s
1. Ever performed in front of a large crowd – have been.
2. Ever done drugs – No!
3. Ever been on a cheerleading team – iewh!
4. Ever been on a dance team - no and never!
5. Ever been on a sports team – yes i was!
6. Ever been in a drama play/production – theater yes!
7. Ever owned a BMW, Mercedes Benz, Escalade, Hummer or Bentley? – BMW!
8. Ever been in a rap video? – NO!

Last person to
1. Sleep in bed beside you? - popo
2. Saw you cry? – popo!
3. You went out to dinner with? – my family!
4. You talked on the phone to? – popo
5. Made you laugh? – liza cicilia

Would you rather
1. Pierce your nose or tongue? – never had
2. Be serious or be funny? – funny person
3. Drink whole or skim milk? – skim milk
4. Spend time with your parents or enemies? – parents

Are you
1. Simple or complicated? – complicated (haha!)
2. Retarded? – ##no!

Do you prefer
1. Flowers or candy? – candy!
2. Gray or black? – black
3. Color or Black and white photos? – depends
4. Sunrise or sunset?- sunset
5. Staying up late or waking up early? – waking up early
6. Sun or moon? – moon.
7. Winter or Summer? – winter!
8. Left or right? – right
9. acquaintances or having two best friends? – two best friends.
10. Sun or rain? – rain!
11. Vanilla or chocolate ice cream? – vanilla
12. Vodka or Jack Daniels? - milk!

Answer truthfully
1. Do you like anyone? – yes, my boyfriend
2. Do they know it? – absolutely!

Unique
1. Nervous Habits? – when the presentations in front of a lot of people
2. Are you double jointed? - no.
3. Can you twist your tongue around and roll it? - no!
4. Can you raise one eyebrow? - yes.
5. Can you cross your eyes? - yes
6. Do you make your bed daily? – hahaha !

In the last month, have you
1. Had a relationship? - 7 years until now!
2. Bought something? – yes, bando!
3. Sang – always!
4. Been hugged – yes
5. Felt stupid – always
6. Missed someone –my high school mates

Lasts
1. Last Alcoholic Drink – never touched that things
2. Last Car ride – yes !
3. Last Movie Seen – green mile
4. Last Song Played – endah & rhesa.

Nervous thingy.

uh! i hate read. ah! one thing that makes me nervous is Presentation. Puhlease! Someways it so easy to tell "the story" about my chapters, but when i faced the crowded of people, uh! makes me neeervous! So, i breath, exhales-inhales, relaxing my mind and think a beautiful things, then i start to speech. then aha! gotcha! i did it! but i try to not see my lecturer's eye, anyway. haha!

used to.

boring times suffering me all the times. but its okay then! my boyfriend taught me

"if you bored at your room, don't go anywhere, just take your pencil or spidol, even your ink pen, and drawing on your blank paper. filled up of your imaginations into that paper".

and i think, it would be awesome times. yes! agree!

i told in previous blog, my boyfriend really inspired me a lot! he's a perfect graphic designer. i love his job now. (really envy me!) just kidding, boy :*

i could draw

i could use camera

i could use the true pencil and other materials

because of him.

thank you, love.

xx,

love you

2 days.

yea! i am not sick any-more, ah i think!

but it is because my boyfriend came to my house for 2 days. yes, i am so happy!

we're talk everything, we're laughter even we don't know what we laugh for, we're showed how much we miss each other, and all of the things that makes me happy and grateful. yes i am!

first day, at saturday.

we're spent our times, to think and measure our expenses for my next-bike! fun! yes!

second day, at sunday.

just laughing, tickling, and fart-ing. hahaha. yes we are!

sometimes, i was scared to lose him again. yes i do!

sometimes, i was did something fool into him, but frankly i just did to give the best for him. i do!

sometimes, i really jealous with who really keep near with him. of course it's girls! i do

hahaha. sometimes, my friends say "come on, you have been 7 years with him"

and i say "hahaha, but we're still human" (!!) Dankk!

i love you, truly love you so much.

not good.

its not good at me, not good.

headache, flu and sore-throat. damn!

every step, the tissue accompanied me all long ways. ah! it's not really good.

headache oh headache, flu oh flu, puhlease.

i just want to go "home" right now, please!

gasp!

while i was thinking about old memories, i try to find my old pictures on my MAC. oh crap! hey thats me in 5 years ago. ah! are you really me? (gasp!) and guess what, i found my boyfriend's photos and of course with me then! so check it out.

well! here we are. Really high-school-times, wear same shirt with different color! those pictures make me laugh out loud. damn! i miss those moments. we're still like a child, cry and mad over.

and honestly, i miss those things.

Perfect Date

Perfect Date by Hazana Anggrayni Solichien featuring lace up boots

I'm ready for a date to wearing this! Lets rock!

24hrs.

your smelled of your skin, your perfect nose, and your pretty eyes. i just enjoy your amazing face when you slept away next to me in a while. ah! i pray to God and God always knows my prayer, indeed. What a great night!

at the morning after the day, i woke up. Frankly, when the morning comes, the first thing i would to see is your face! and out of my room, i see you and i hug you say "good morning, love" (haha!) at the moment, thats the perfect morning for me.

ah! i miss you already less than 24 hrs.

Random Q's.

will you talk to the person you like on the phone tonight?
done!
ever had a near death experience?
when i was child, yes!
where’s your cell phone?
next to me
what is the last thing you thought about?
my thesis really frustrating me.
do you regret anything?
sometimes.
what are you going to do this weekend?
biggest of toys fair with my bf
when was the last time you talked to one of your best friends?
a week ago, hayudya witasari
do you prefer revenge or just pure jealousy/envy?
keep silent and stay calm.
who would you like your next “fling” to be with?
Ben Affleck or Johnny depp (ding!)
would you curse in front of your parents?
i love both of them
what kind of camera do you have?
1 fish eye, 1 aquapix and 2 digital camera
would you rather go to a party or out of town?
out of town
are you slowly drifting away from someone close?
none.
who can you tell everything to?
popo!
is any part of your body sore?
my fat?
are you missing someone right now?
abso-bloody yes
is there someone on your mind that shouldn’t be?
no!
when was the last time you saw the person you last kissed?
a week ago! uh i miss you, love.
do you like your phone?
pretty sure.
have any of your best friends ever back stabbed you?
might be yes
if you had to move in with a friend, which one would you pick?
--
what’s the seventh text message in your inbox say?
momi, aku berangkat yah -popo.
when is your next road trip?
this june.
what did you do this weekend?
feeding my kitty cats, playing iPad and watch some movies
met anyone new in the past week?
no.
who was the last person to go to the movies with you?
popo!
are you currently fighting with someone?
not really though
last time you had butterflies in your stomach?
not butterflies, but worm.
who/what would you like to see right now?
popo, kiss and hug him tightly.
are you mad at someone right now?
mad in love i think
what’s the nicest text in your inbox say?
popo & wita.
do you mainly use your house phone or your cell phone?
both. if i haven't any top up
is there an empty place in your heart?
no! popo filled up
do you count down the days till anything?
yes, collected the proposal of thesis also the yudisium
are you looking forward to something as of right now?
kinda.
anyone told you a secret this week?
think! no!
do you ever turn your cell phone off?
yes!
do you hate anyone?
no!
last time you wore the opposite sex’s clothing?
popo's sweater.
what do you want in your life right now?
everything i deserve and get a married with
do you trust people easily?
no! popo taught me a lot
what were you doing at 9pm friday night?
it means thursday? zikir at home with whole family
last person you showered naked with?
(*)
your best friend has sex with your ex, what happens?
no one.
your friend kisses the boy/girl you like, what do you do?
GET MAD AND PUNCH OVER THEM (gangsta!)
what do you want right this second?
dreaming!
your mood?
yawning
do certain alcohols make you have different emotions and what?
not drunk!
if you could change one thing this year about your life, would you?
i just thankful to God!
this time last year, can you remember who you liked?
yes!
does it bother you when people try to make you jealous?
popo always did it to me and just work it (haha)
does it matter to you if your boyfriend/girlfriend drinks?
YES. i don't like though
was yesterday terrible?
no!
do you have a hard time admitting you’re wrong?
sometimes
would you take someone back who cheated on you?
--!

P&I.

sometimes be a servant should has a pride and intelligence and silent is much better than act like wiser! thats the quotes for today. i just got it when i watched some movie and i realize that every people get deserves the best from each. whoever they are senator or president, the working class get deserves the best.

and me, just like another day, feel strange, feel "it is nonsense". Pride and intelligence, ya? my mom taught me a lot about that. How to builds that? the answer is from our own self and beliefs.

i trying to be better person, not a worst! i supposed to see from other perspectives. If somebody calls me worst, then i should think why they said like that and convince them to gave them some value for their self not mine. are they good than me or reverse?.

Allah give me a strength.

tons.

what does it means of the words "i miss you"?

i just know, that words means ah! i want meet you, i want to do somethings physically by you, or please brought me to somewhere or nowhere with you, just be with you. yes! i miss you.

i miss you like thousand millions stars in the skies.

i want you here, next to me. Hold me tight when i sick, like now! kiss my forehead, when i sad, like now! and sleep with me, when i scared be alone, like now! ah! i miss you lots of tons.

parts.

well, this is my first month at the first year i feel bad. Hard headache, just make me lay down on bed almost 4 days. The effects of that, my nose always bleeding. Ah! its not good, really not good. I am sick. yeah sick! not like the other days, i just feel strange. oh ah! i just got the results of my exams, there's good and bad. I am not good in Math, but i really good in Theory! boo-yeah!

the other things of today, i just got news that tomorrow my boyfriend will night-rides with his best friends, and i was feeding my kitty cats, lots of fun today, but not really fun. Because my headache attacks! uh, i was playing my iPad. then my father asked me about my thesis though, and i answers "everything will be fine, pa". The other hand, while i was playing my iPad, suddenly my head was hurt then i stopped. So i go back to my rooms and take a rest for while, and my boyfriend hard to catch, his phone is nowhere! ah.

ps; while i was write my blog, i've got message on Yahoo!Mail from Nickie, my friend like my sister from Holland. She will come to Indonesia in 4 months later. Then i just dream i had one big cupboard in my rooms, there's so many pairs of shoes, the dresses, the shirts, Jeans, Scarves, and many things. ah! just dream.

still headache attacks!

Random facts!

Drink: mineral water and sweet-tea

Restaurant: japanese cuisine and Indonesia’s

TV Show: Glee!, NCIS, and Prison Break

City: Santorini, London, Sierra, and Paris

Food: Fish, beef and chicken!

Desert: Cookies&cream ice cream, and fruit punch

Magazine: W!, Nylon, Vanity Fair, and Vogue

Way to Relax: Traveler, Music and Drawing

Place: Someplace makes me peace and feels safe!

Cell Phone: iPhone

Shoe: Converse, Edgy!

Date: Escape from the town

Color: Pantone Color!

Day: Weekends

Season: Spring and Winter

Store: Classy and edgy things !

Boy: HIM(:

Movie: Ben Affleck’s, PIXAR&Disney, Johnny Depp’s, and Sci-Fi.

Animal: No insects and reptiles!

Actor: Johnny Depp, Ben Affleck

Actress: Mila Kunis, Zooey Deschanel, Kirsten Stewart

Football Club: Barcelona!

Snack Food: Hershey; everything about chocolate

Outfit: Casual edgy

Laptop: Mac Apple things!

Music: Alternative rock!

Band: Radiohead, Paramore, Incubus, King of Convenience, She&Him, Naif

Solo Male: John Mayer, Bruno Mars, John Legend, Owl City, James Morrison

Solo Female: Lily Allen, Zooey Deschanel, Kate Perry

Room: full of my sketch and pictures on my wall

Bag: Touch of classy

Wallet: Cleopatra

Kiss: Sweet things